The Fountain

I'm content with your company.And I think you are gonna make one hell of a good dad.Maybe a little overly protective,but a damn good dad.

I really hope so. But I mean have you seen what I look like. Everyone is going to expect I forced myself on Mei. She's just so....happy and I'm not. When people see us together I don't think they get it. Mei's persona doesn't fit how she dresses at all. I know everyone is going to think I forced her or something like that. Her father is going to kill me. And her mother. No one knows but you and us. We're going to tell my mom tomorrow maybe. And our friends are going to tell her to get rid of it. Some of her friends don't like me, They think I'm a bad guy.

Alright,who cares about what other people think.I have a cousin named Jamie and no one thought he was going to be a good dad because he is pretty much an ass hole,but he is such an amazing father that it almost brought tears to my eyes.I know your scared and peoples thoughts can hurt,but you and Mei know that you didn't force yourself on her and you two are like magnets.Opposites attract.I totally get that.Just focus on the truth and stop worrying so much about what other people will think.You're both adults and Mei would tell everyone if you had forced yourself on her.That's just Mei.So calm down a little,do some yoga or tai chi.I loves yoga.So calming.

Yeah but you don't get it. I don't want people to think anything bad about Mei. She's my world and people are going to call her many terrible names and things. Mei's heart is too soft for all of the trouble and drama about to happen. And people will spread the idea that I forced myself on her. Mei acts so happy-go-lucky but she dyes her hair and wears black. People think I changed her for the worst. She never tells you that her friends dont like me. She pretends nothing by it. I don't know if I can be such a great father. I look more like the guy who does nothing but goes to concerts and sleeps. (Not that I don't work) And I know her friends will try to get her to get rid of it. I don't want her to but it's her choice.

Mei will never get rid of the baby and Mei is also stronger than you think.If her friends start stuff I'm pretty sure she'd bitch them out and maybe even hit one of them.Never underestimate a pregnant womans hormones.Never.Moods can change in an instant.

I know but she's confused now and... I don't want to lose her. I don't know what I would do.

Honestly,she was afraid you would leave her.She's not going to leave you...but you will have to put up with cravings and mood swings...and morning sickness.

I can handle that. I'm pretty good with things like that.

Good,because my dad wasn't really and he was in panic mode whenever my mom tried to do anything lol

Well.... That'll be me in the end. Alright Mei said she is going to sleep and she says good night. If thats fine I'd like to talk a little longer?

Tell her I say wan an(which is chinese for good night)and of course I'd like to talk more.If Mei hasn't told you already I haven't been having the best day.I'd really like to talk more.

She told me a little but not much. What happened? (She says nighty-night)

Pretty much my girlfriend of almost 7 months dumped last night.It really only hit me at about 2 today and I cried for about 20 minutes.She wants to stay friends,but I'm not sure if that hurts me more or makes me angry.

I don't know. I think thats a hard call. I would be upset if I loved them so much. If Mei did that. I have no idea. I wouldn't be able to be her friend because I love her so much and I would never get over her and other guys. I think thats like hurting yourself to stay friends. But thats harsh.

I wanted us both to get through college and get married and start an family.We even had a list of baby names.I am so hoping that in the future we can get back together but I don't even think I'll date for about a year or longer.

I get what you mean. It was so hard loving Mei for so many years and never telling her. Watching her break up with guys and having to be there for her. Be her shoulder but never be able to have her the way I wanted her. I thank you so much. I don't know if you realize. I would have just let her go. She would have been the one that got away. I don;t know if I would have ever loved anyone like I do Mei. It hurt though. Thinking we never had a chance. Dropping hints but she never getting them. I've loved her for years and I almost never dated. I tried to get over her but they were never good enough. Thats how you'll feel at first.

That's how I'll feel for a good long while.I don't tend to recover from heart break quickly.It'll take a long while of slow healing,but at least I have you and Mei to help me through it.One of her main reasons for leaving me is that she wants me to be a part of my family and she want me and my mom to become closer.I could send you the message in a pm.Mei has already seen it.It might help you to better understand her mind set and way of thinking.

I'll just check her mail. She left it open. She so... Mei sometimes. Just remember we're here for you.

I know lol and I warn you,I can be pretty Mei sometimes too lol

Wow..... O.O Thats kind of selfish. Don't you think. If she loved you then family would not matter. Tell her about Mei and I. Our family is broken but we don't care.
And thats fine. I love Mei so I'm sure you're great too.

I know,but she's very family oriented.I knew that from the start.I should've seen this coming,especially after all the bad dreams I've had lately.In one of them she got a sex change,went gay,and left me with 5 kids and 8 cats while she ran off with a hot asian guy.I so should've seen this coming.I'm so blind.The signs were there and I just didn't want to see them.I am such an idiot.

WOW. The dream is funny. Sorry. I'm sure Mei would laugh too. Thats just.... Sorry. You're not an idiot. Believe me. I am. Much more than you. And that wont happen. You'll find someone. I'm sure. Just keep looking.

Maybe I'll find some hot asian guy or adorable asian chick.I love the way asian people look.So adorable and tiny ^_^

Yeah... Mei has a thing for Asian guys. I know that. She got it from you didn't she?

...maaaaaaaaaaaaaaayybe lol jk she and I are so alike it's no suprise lol...are yuo asian at all?