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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:53 pm | |
| Same here but you have severe reoccuring depression and randomly just try to push away and hut the people you love without meaning to and regret it later until your so sad you cut yourself.I cant help it.I try so hard not to fall again into despair,but at random times I just do. | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:54 pm | |
| oops!misspelled some words and left out one or two I think.Well thats what happens when I ramble. | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:54 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Same here but you have severe reoccuring depression and randomly just try to push away and hut the people you love without meaning to and regret it later until your so sad you cut yourself.I cant help it.I try so hard not to fall again into despair,but at random times I just do.
yeha same im also bipolar and very emotional the only person even to actually calm me is misa... | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:55 pm | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:56 pm | |
| she ..... stopped me from cutting..... my arm is so scared but there are times when i feel like i faint i seem normal to everyone else yet i feel aasleep when i wake up i have new marks on me.... i dont really tell anyone that part | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:57 pm | |
| I hate it and hate myself for what I am.So many scars.I had someone who calm me down better than my girl friends,but hes gone now,he moved,I never told him how.... | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:58 pm | |
| I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs. | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:00 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I hate it and hate myself for what I am.So many scars.I had someone who calm me down better than my girl friends,but hes gone now,he moved,I never told him how....
i know too i hate myself too ...... i have over 50 scars on my left arm.... | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:01 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:03 pm | |
| Mine are mostly on my legs,cause my mom checks my arms now.I dont know how many,but my legs will never get tan and I dont want them to be.The whiter I am the easier it is to hide the scars from everyone else.You are one of the lucky ones.You have someone to calm you down,all I have is a picture and memories. | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:04 pm | |
| - Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:07 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. there are rare instances when i do the same thing | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:08 pm | |
| - Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. there are rare instances when i do the same thing thank God yours are rare,I feel it everytime. We are making ourselves so depressed right now huh? | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:10 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Mine are mostly on my legs,cause my mom checks my arms now.I dont know how many,but my legs will never get tan and I dont want them to be.The whiter I am the easier it is to hide the scars from everyone else.You are one of the lucky ones.You have someone to calm you down,all I have is a picture and memories.
i have to hide mine my cousin thinks he can stop me.... so i kinda hide them also there are times where it doesnt work for her calming me down in those instances im jsut lucky i guess that i couldnt find a razor... | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:11 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. there are rare instances when i do the same thing thank God yours are rare,I feel it everytime.
We are making ourselves so depressed right now huh? kinda but ive been a bit depressed ..... the smallest thing can trigger me into a depressed state.... the joys of being bipolar>.> | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:12 pm | |
| even if doent always work,you still have the net to catch you when your falling,I have no safety net,I just fall and then have to pick myself back up on my own.
Is it ok if I add you as a friend? | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:13 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- even if doent always work,you still have the net to catch you when your falling,I have no safety net,I just fall and then have to pick myself back up on my own.
Is it ok if I add you as a friend? yeah | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:14 pm | |
| - Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. there are rare instances when i do the same thing thank God yours are rare,I feel it everytime.
We are making ourselves so depressed right now huh? kinda but ive been a bit depressed ..... the smallest thing can trigger me into a depressed state.... the joys of being bipolar>.> sorry your bipolar,Im ADHD and half the time my family likes to make me feel like the family idiot just because Im blond,but I want to be an Anesthesiologist and they dont think I can really do it. | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:14 pm | |
| the odd part is i hid like 30 razors in my room when i was depressed last but i cant really find em i actually found one now.... | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:16 pm | |
| You must be good at hiding things.I only have a pocket knife the size of my finger so I can hide it in my bra if need be. | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:16 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- Lightkun wrote:
- Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- I know what you mean,I black out at school in the bathroom and then new cuts are either on my arms or legs.
yeha and when im aware of them like when i consiously do it i dont feel any pain and i dont bleed for several min so i dont think im actually doing it.... till i see them bleeding no when I do it conciously I feel all the pain and I love it for some reason,and then I hate myself again for loving it. there are rare instances when i do the same thing thank God yours are rare,I feel it everytime.
We are making ourselves so depressed right now huh? kinda but ive been a bit depressed ..... the smallest thing can trigger me into a depressed state.... the joys of being bipolar>.> sorry your bipolar,Im ADHD and half the time my family likes to make me feel like the family idiot just because Im blond,but I want to be an Anesthesiologist and they dont think I can really do it. oh i know what you mean im the family anger target.. >.> anything goes wrong its my fault..... also...... im never left alone there always buggin the hell out of me..... | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:17 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- You must be good at hiding things.I only have a pocket knife the size of my finger so I can hide it in my bra if need be.
no i jsut kinda forget lol i keep a razor in my wallet but its hard to get out so i forget about it lol | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:18 pm | |
| lol forgetful much?Yeah.You know,you are pretty cool. | |
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Ravenicka(AKA R) civillian
Number of posts : 3566 Age : 31 Location : Somewhere I don't want to be right now......I'm gonna go gut a clown. Registration date : 2008-03-05
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 0 Name= Death Note: 0 Shinigami Eyes: 0
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:20 pm | |
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Lightkun Kira
Number of posts : 1243 Age : 39 Location : Kiras Room Registration date : 2008-02-01
Shinigami Powers Death God and Death Gods Name: 1000 Name=Jealous Death Note: 100 Shinigami Eyes: 2000
| Subject: Re: The Cafe Thu Mar 13, 2008 11:20 pm | |
| - Ravenicka(AKA R) wrote:
- lol forgetful much?Yeah.You know,you are pretty cool.
^^ thanks so far it seem like everyone i know has wanted me as there big bro lol | |
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